sooo i've been dead for a while.. but this time i actually forgot my password, and i didnt update my email address so when i do password recovery it would go to my old email, which was deleted ;______________;.. i finally figured out my pw just now, i gotta change it to something I can remember forever XD. I dont really have much stuff really, just some rough works, but ill be happy to upload them tomorrow, its so late @_@;; ill be catching up and reading your messages if you've sent me any, thanks XP.

Am I Alive ?
Heheh, well for now i am XD. Kinda woke back up here again *wipes dust on DA account*. Hopefully ill contribute some more art <3.

Current Works
Whitesmith - Makki: currently sketching, begining lineart
Whitesmith Couple - ???? -
Creator (female)


Topic of Today
Not much going on, just doing the usual.. RO.. draw.. chat, drive and hang out with friends. I kinda wish something new would happen, but that just wont come to me X3. Anyway, most of my old DA friends seem busy x__x lemme try and wake them up

yes... a big word... college.

even though being a smart hard working person at school... i totally feel so unprepared !!! *sob*. I went to get my university ID, and when i was there... i felt like a little damn kid, oh how it feels to be a great-and-mighty senior at your high school... then plumetting down to a college undergraduate @_@;;.
im not ready!!!!! *goes crazy*

well alot of stuff has happened.. I do plan to get back into art again, but not yet. Most likely during the summer... alot has happened, so heres some good news and some bad news ;

Good News
-I will be getting a new computer of my own
-Summer vacation is coming up
-Ill be getting my driver's license pretty soon, so if any of you artists live in las vegas, i could meet ya

Bad News
-My current computer is thrashed and need to get it fixed...The repair cost is around 80 bucks + T_T;;;
-If i do get my new computer with my current computer thrashed still.. I'll have to share that one... then it really wont be a computer of my own

Random Dreams Record
-Monday : Girl with long black/brown hair ( bangs on the side of her face ), Hugging, Smile
-Wedsnday : Same girl again, unknown place
-Thursday : STAR WARS !! ( my cousin and little brother as obi wan kenobi and dark vader !! , me... as an x-wing pilot !! w00t0 )

The girl that appeared twice gave me different thoughts today... Of who she is.. I feel like drawing her, i cant really think of the face clearly but i know how she looks like. I really couldnt catch anything else besides her face and after shared a hug with each other... @_@;;; i wonder if its a sign...


other than that.. I broke up with a girlfriend during the past time ;. I didnt do it for selfish reasons, atleast i think... I gave her enough reasoning, though I feel like i need to stay away from her... because somehow i can end up having a strong hate if i stay any closer ;; ofcourse she wasnt a whore or anything that i didnt like. We shared nice times, though... I thought about it all, and ended up with thinking that I was just doing this for my sorrow for my ex-girlfriend. She's really nice, too nice at times... people take advantage over her and i realy dont like it, i even dont like it when guys around her just mess with her like that, and she really doesnt do anything... I could always take a step and say like " hey, dont do that... " , but I just cant... I was thinking that being with her could heal me... but I ended up going everyday either feeling hurt or stressed all the time... I knew that i was hiding things from her, and it wasnt right. Though i never wanted to bring my problems up with her, after all.. I dont want to spend time with a girlfriend angsting and thinking over little problems, i want her to have the best possible fun. But yeah... I guess i can always do that the next time my luck strikes again. Sometimes i sorta do regret that i did break up, but Im happy now... I feel less pressure on me and not only that, i dont have to have her worry over me alot.

other than that... I've realized that my feelings for my friend have never changed... I've always loved her ever since whenever i hugged her she said she felt safe with me. But I dont know, maybe I wont see that personality of her again (ever since that crisis with her ex-boyfriend... i swear, i really want to kill him for ruining such a nice girl.....), nor never get with her again... Even though i entirely would die to be like that with her again, Its also fine being friends... even though it hurts alot everytime she smiles at me.



sorry for that rant, it just helps me to type/talk things out even if no one is listening ;

sorry i havent uploaded any works lately, as you see i've been working on my website/forums for a bit... i plan to work on a few and upload some during the weekend since its a 4 day weekend ^_^ so yeah.. hang in there !!!!

not much to talk about, so ill see ya later.. take care ^O^